Wow, haven't really done anything on DA in a LONG while, don't know just been feeling stressd, anxoius, frustrated, restless, and unable to focus AT ALL, and I really have no idea why, so, if you have any idea what the heck is up with me, please share.
This entire home-schooling program is not working for me at all, I've noticed, or more possibly my mother noticed, that I've been going slightly down-hill with my focus and interaction(which has never really been that strong). I keep telling my mom that I need the a more positive enviornment with students who have effective morals and goals, such as I have. We've been comptemplating different including moving and getting into a better public school(which both my mother and myself highly doubt is going to happen any time soon, with my fathers "carrot and the horse" game that is never-ending), if mother mother were to quit home-schooling and get a job to pay for a tuition to a private school, but then she would have to cease teaching my brother(and seeing as my brother and I are night and day, he enjoys and is actually doing better in home-school, where as I do far better in an interactive classroom), and the third option, which is more just me than anyone else, is the option of boarding school which I think I would do excellent in, becuase right now in my life, my academic abilities are pretty much all I have going for myself, and I think that if my entire enviornment were to be one a education and academics, I would thrive, but my mother is rather clingy, and my family cannot afford the boarding and tuition.
Well no that I've that drain on emotions that have been filling my head to brim, I have to go and see if now, hopefully, I can focus a little better.